Hey you guys ... finally writing a new blog lol. So sorry I haven't been talking to ya'll very much lately. I've been pretty busy working and doing things with the church. But I have a few things to tell you guys / update yall on certain things. Basically I've been setting myself straight with God and that's one reason why I've been so distant from everyone. I knew that if I hung out with yall as much as I wanted I would have been somewhat distracted from what I was trying to accomplish from God. I realized that I've always been saying how I'm so in love with God and how I want to do all these things for him, but in NO WAY have my actions shown that. My personality is still somewhat the same I just don't have many of the desires that I use to have anymore. Like drinking, cursing, and stealing.. All those things didn't make me happy, it just made things worse. But now I'm FINALLY happy and satisfied on how my life is going after I went to camp and gave up all my ways to God and decided to go on a new journey and try to do things God's way. I mean I know I may sound like one of those Jesus Freaks, but hey if that's how people want to know me as then let it be. I'm not arguing with that because I am! I just don't care what people think of me anymore, especially after this transformation I'm going through, shooot, it's for me not anyone else. I may lose friends because of my change and new attitude, but if that's the way things are gonna be I'm not going to get all offensive over it and just gonna let things take it's place. Ha, and I'm going to be completely honest, and I'm not trying to offend anyone but if it does I'm sorry, I knew that if I continued to hang out with you guys then I would not have accomplished anything that I wanted to. Not saying you guys are bad people, because you're not at all. It's just all the cussing and drinking was overwhelming after a while. And me being me didn't say anything about how I felt with it when I knew I should have and just went right on with you guys doing the same stuff and that wasn't right. I don't know how much longer I'm going to be distant from the <> but it's going to be as long as I need to make sure everything is straight in my life. Again I say I'm sorry for holding this back and taking this long to update you guys about it. I'm not mad at anyone and I'm not trying to ditch yall or anything, it's just one of those times where I need to be alone and get things together.
Buttttttt, here's an update on how things went at camp and stuff..
Me and Elijah were more friends than anything around each other and that's the only vibe we got for now. But we still enjoyed our time around each other. I was pretty sick the whole week at camp to the point I was passing out and had no voice. I made BIG commitments to God about a lot of things and I'm not trying to break those commitments. As each day goes by I realize how sick I've been getting and stirring up the courage to go to the doctors. (sorry this blog is boring..) Last but not least, I've been talking to this guy named Steffen for a little while, he's korean and white. He's sweet and stuff but there are some flaws. I'm not trying to rush into a relationship but we'll see how this goes. I'm really starting to like him? It's questionable. Oh kristine, I have mae's jacket and your plaid shirt that I need to give you, so I might drop it by one day after work or something. But I really do hope you all are doing well and having a good summer, I know I am lol, I'm getting darker. But God Bless and Much Love you guys <3> Laterrrr!
The Heart Throb
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